i claim nothing, i owe no one anything. i've worked hard to be where i am. i've worked hard to be where i should be.

i am not a romantic. i don't need any romantic validation from anyone. i don't need a man to sweep me off my feet. i don't need to be near anyone to feel that my heart still beats.

but sometimes, i learned that it pays to be the one person that has nothing to lose and everything to gain. i feel so blessed that i have a good job and a family that cares, but i feel better that i know deep in my heart that there is someone that can make some days better and some days worse. am i in love, you ask? no, i am not. sadly. i am still in love with the person that i was in love with so long ago...but now i am learning. that what can make you feasibly happy in the future, doesn't have to kill you now. learning it the hard way, but i am totally learning it.